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hors controle Nov 17, 2019 (11:04 PM)  

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Thank you both,

It is hard. Even tough I keep repeating myself that I was feeling so much better during that 2 months of sobriety, which is true. 


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Ashley,


Thank you!  I’ve been thinking of your thought since it was posted, and for me it’s true.  The pain of regret is tough, I feel it often. Fortunately for me my drinking days did not cost me any real loses other than time.  I really don’t remember the specifics of how I felt during my transition to becoming alcohol free. I know I had rough times and I remember wondering if it was possible for me to be alcohol free.  But nothing that is thought about now. What I do think about is all the time that I wasted, doing what I thought I loved. The pain of change is nothing compared to the pain of regret.  


Knowing that we should change, or need to change, doesn’t make it easier.  Change is hard. We want to change but we don’t want to go through the process to change.  Or at least that is the way I was, which is why I never could go very long without drinking before stopping for good.  I wanted to be a non-drinker, but I wanted to drink. In the end, choices had to be made and change did not happen until those choices were truly embraced.  



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Only you know when it’s time.  As Ashley said, we are all here rooting for you!


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I love that thought Lynn123!


Strangely, it is kind of in line with a thought I have been thinking lately: The pain of change is nothing compared to the pain of regret.

hors,
All this mental work you are doing now will make the transition easier, once you are ready. In the mean time we are here rooting you on!


Thanks for sharing,


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hors controle Nov 12, 2019 (04:47 PM)  

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Thank you Lynn,

I was talking to my son last night and he was telling me his sisters are going to Al-Anon and they cry and it just broke my mother's heart. He never says anything but last night he said " I know you have been drinking tonight. It is not because I never say anything that I do not know" . Ouch!! It hurts.

I am minding myself to stop again... for good. Very soon. I realize I am not only hurting myself but I am also hurting people I love and it is not right.

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Good luck this week hors controle!


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hors controle Nov 10, 2019 (03:04 PM)  

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Hi Lynn,

The meeting with the client went well but I did have a few drinks before going. This was stupid because I do not need to drink before meeting clients. I guess I just got bored and tried to kill time with drinking.... I am working every evening this coming week. I will have to be on my guard

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Lynn123 Nov 08, 2019 (08:35 PM)  

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I just came across this and thought I would share.


Don't fear failure.  Fear being in the exact same place next year as you are today.

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hors controle, 


How did things go with your clients the other night?  Hope things are getting better for you!

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hors controle Nov 04, 2019 (02:38 PM)  

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Thank you Lynn and Foxman,

I did think about detox centre for a while but being self employed and without insurance I cannot afford to go away for so long. Yesterday, I drank more than one bottle, I even drive my car after a few glasses. I hate when I do this. I just forget I could have to go to jail if I get arrested... again.

I have clients to see tonight and I made up my mind I was not going to drink even if the cravings become too harsh. One day at the time. Again. 

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hors controle,


Sorry to hear the last few days did not go as you wanted.  In another thread you mentioned that you were no longer in denial.  I see that as an accomplishment.  It also seems that you are becoming more aware of some of the negative affects on alcohol on your body.  Getting back on track is no easy task.  Use your accomplishments to keep you moving in the right direction.  I hope today has been better for you.

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Hors, may be you can look into detoxification option if you have insurance. Under supervised care, you can relax and look at your options. In fact the Doctors Opinion talks about it. You are in a phase where craving/obsession has taken over, it takes deep perseverance to come out of it.

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Hi Lynn,

Did not go too well. The only thing I managed was not starting to drink before 4 or 5 in the afternoon. Yesterday I started earlier and my daughter noticed it while we were talking on the phone.

I already  see all the bad about drinking. My hot flashes are back, I do not sleep as well, my energy level is down as well as my bank account .


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Thank you Ashley.


hors controle, how did things go yesterday?

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Brilliant observation Lynn123! Wonderfully written as well. Thank you for sharing. 




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I hope the first part of your day has gone well.  Wishing you luck for the 2nd part!

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